What do I know that I could write about, that would be different from what other people write about? I know motherhood. I know what it feels like to be an unpublished, unknown author, but that sounds sad. Like a sad sack wrote it. No one likes a sad sack. Cry, and you cry alone and all that. Oh. It's weep, and you weep alone. Ella Wheeler Wilcox, 1883. So I know how to look stuff up on the internet, but that's not different from anyone, these days.
I know adoption. There is much mixed up in the wondrous, miraculous, gruesome sausage that is adoption. I'm not sure I have the courage to write about it. But thank you, Ella Wheeler W. for your headsticker of a platitude, because not having the courage to write about our adoption sounds sad-sacky too. It sounds worse. It sounds pussyish.
I can't write words like pussyish in a public blog though, because I want to be a children's book author. I wonder if there is a way to separate my identities, and I wonder if this is just another way I am torpedoing my new chosen career. By the way, part of the seventh definition of pussy in the Urban Dictionary reads "incapable of the capabilities." This cracks me up a little. I'd give the rest of that whole Urban Dictionary site a miss, if I were you, if you don't like a lot of crass profanity. If you do, I recommend you pick up a Chuck Palahniuk book. He's much better.
I need to write something besides this infernal middle grade novel that I cannot finish. (I WILL finish it.) (Hi, Sybil.) My training-wheels book.
I'm thinking about starting an adoption blog. I hope I can remember stuff to write about from the last six years, and was it really six years ago that we started thinking about adopting? Maybe five.
What else do I know besides being a mother (there are a lot of those mothers out there) and some fading knowledge of design research, and rusty-as-hell print design expertise, and what it's like to grow up in the suburbs and move to the city, only end up in a suburban part of the city? Heh. Never actually thought about that truth until now.
What else do I know, anyway?
From now on, please call me Lacuna Davis.
Posted by: cc | September 12, 2011 at 07:06 AM
Hello pseudonym!
How about Lacuna Davis Johnson or Michelle Spearhead Fitzgerald?
Posted by: schubie | August 27, 2011 at 08:45 PM