Han had a febrile seizure late this afternoon. He's okay now. He'd been sick all day with a fever and a 'stomach ache.' He slept, and ate and drank almost nothing. Around four, when the skiiers came home, he finally ate a few berries and watched a some Nemo. I hoped he was coming out of it.

Then he wandered into the office where I was jumping rope, trying to break loose from a paralyzed day. He laid down on the floor with his blanket. He does that sometimes if one of us is working in there and he's boycotting nap. Only this time, when I turned around a couple minutes later, he was in an unnatural, face-down position. His legs moved weirdly. For some reason, I knew immediately that he was seizing but my brain jammed. I turned him over. His face was blank. He wasn't with me. His lips looked blue. I shrieked nonsense. "Han! What are you doing?" I felt helpless. I called 911 on my cell. It seemed to take forever to connect. All I could think was every second mattered. Every second. He could die if I wasted even one second. I sent a freaked-out Iona to get Ewan, who was in the shower. Han stopped his bizarre dance after a couple, maybe several, minutes. He wasn't with me. His eyes looked somewhere else.

The firepeople came (one was a woman!). The main guy told us what was up. Many kids have seizures with a fever (febrile seizures). It is common. I yelled, "But he's still not himself! He has this birthmark!" The firepeople were nice and very good. They were confident. They were not alarmed. They said, "You can watch him or you can take him in." They said, "You can call us again if you need to."

We took him to urgent care, Children's Hospital, in Bellevue. By the time we got there, Han was himself, demanding a cereal bar when he saw Iona eating one. The doctor was calm. She looked at him, in his ears, made him pee in a basin. She gave him amoxicillin for an ear infection. I learned that a child's fever doesn't even have to be high to cause a seizure.

Han is asleep beside me. He will be fine. I thought I was going to lose him.